nominasi hadiah Nobel

pada era modenisasi, globalisasi, urbanisasi dan basi ini, krisis ekonomi dan finansial semakin serius. Amerika telah mengetepikan diskriminasi dan menjadikan Barack Obama presiden hitam pertama mereka. Bolehkah Obama menjustifikasikan apointmennya?

Ketika Amerika mendebatkan implemetasi inisiatif membasmi krisis ekonomi, kita sedang mendebatkan penggunaan English sebagai medium untuk Sains dan Matematik. Sistem edukasi nasional kita mempunyai problemasi yang kronik. Sejak &70-an, English sebagai medium telah diskrapkan, digantikan Bahasa Melayu. Kini, sitizen atau generasi muda Malaysia mempunyai problemasi berfikir dan berkomunikasi dalam bahasa ibunda. Dan eksis golongan konservatif yang mahu Bahasa Melayu diaktifkan semula. Di era moden di mana homosapien berkomunikasi dan bertukar informasi dalam English sebagai medium internasional, adalah ridikulasi untuk mengaktifkan Bahasa Melayu semula sebagai medium Sains dan Matematik.

Oh, dan untuk informasi kamu, fatwa Islam telah mengillegalisasikan yoga kerana boleh mengkoruptkan penganutnya.

Justification

Malaysia is not at all helpless, after the recently released UPSR results showed that our young Malaysians still can fare well in Math and Science in English. Thank you 12-year olds for proving to the old conservative minds that English is, needless to say, the way to go nowadays. These old men are only thinking for the sake the national language, not for the sake of the students' future.

Isn't the whole point of teaching the subjects in English obvious enough? Most of these young generations already have the serious problem of thinking and understanding things in their mother tongues, and the government made it worse by letting them do so. So what if they're having problems understanding them in English? Like it or not, they have to.

In the first place the teaching medium shouldn' have been changed from English to Malay in the 70's. That's 30 over years of damage done. Whose fault is it that people cant understand things in English? Whose fault is it that teachers cant teach in English? Now, even in some local universities, lecturers are still teaching in Malay. Look at the standard of our education when it was still in English, it was definitely way better than now. Who the heck changed it?

To sum up the issue, in Malaysia education begins after leaving school.

Below is Liverpool's star-studded line-up in the Carling cup match against Tottenham. You get the chills down your spine when u see the names. But, what baffles me is why they lost? This is undeserving!

Cavalieri Diego(G)

Sami Hyypia(D)

Andrea Dossena(D)

Philipp Degen(D)

Daniel Agger(D)

Lucas Leiva(M)

Damien Plessis(M)

Fernando Torres(ST)

Ryan Babel(ST)

Nabil El Zhar(ST)

David Ngog(ST)

The only unknowns here are Fernando Torres and Ryan Babel. Who are they?

Can you see anything sesat in the pics below?

Why Kuma Kuma should accept Tevez

1. He likes her for who she is. He is clear of what he wants in his partner because he has definitely met many kind of girls that attract guys in general, but yet he likes her. She is different. She is colourful, not just green, friendly (not like the average timid, personality-wise weak girls who wait for guys to approach them), happy-go-lucky, mysterious, tough and weak at the same time that makes him wanna care for her. He’s not a good listener but when she speaks, he wants to listen.

2. He thinks differently about what kind of looks is normal. His good friend who knows him well can prove to you that. She’s not fat. She’s not round. In fact, he has a whole different measurement unit. He thinks her roommate is too skinny like stick while she is just nice. He doesn’t mind about her cover-up dressing style. In his eyes, she’s pretty the way she looks.

3. They have a lot of conversation topics, similar way of thinking with many opinions in common like the way they judge people. Although they are from different fields, they have a connection which is rare and hard to find.

4. He’s confident of his lust control. He would feel cheap and hates himself if he ever takes advantage of girls for own sexual desire. He’s not a saint but he respects women enough to stop thinking of doing stupid things. He doesn’t like treating girls as mere sex object, but beleafs in sex as love.

5. One is left-brain centered while another is right-brain centered. They complete each other like batman and joker. Hahahahahahaha. They can live a 2 way relationship as both can help each other out during hard times. He feels that the tastes differences can be outweighed by their similar way of thinking on daily life issues as long as they respect each other’s interests.

6. Distance barrier between homes is reasonable.

7. Both have similar family backgrounds. They believe both sides of parents can get along well and have good impression on Kuma Kuma and Tevez. They went through similar things in life and have their own values which he feels will not clash.

8. He has a bright future with the course he’s studying. In long term, he’s likely to be able to be financially stable and supportive. Maybe even more than just stability.

9. Both are not attention desperado. They can stand on their own feet even if they don’t get much attention. There won’t be stickiness problems. They know they have their own daily agendas, that they have other things to worry about in their own lives too. As for what he said about not wanting to find a partner whom he meets every day as he may get bored, he admits it’s contradictory with what he’s doing now. He ate his own words. But he can’t do anything if the feelings are always there. Maybe, maybe because both sides are not as sticky like her roommate and partner, this principle would not be much of an issue.

10. He has a bit of introverted-ness as he doesn’t get too comfortable with the commitments of a too big circle of friends. He’s easily satisfied with his current batch of friends. Normally he keeps an emotional distance from not-so-close friends. He’s the kind of person who dislikes going out too much and he appreciates his time at home. So, he’s not likely to cheat on her. And he knows he’s not a good-looking person either, so when he finds a right one, he will really appreciate her.

11. They both don’t demand a lot from their partners. They are realistic. She doesn’t mind about what he doesn’t have. A typical girl would hope for a too-good-to-be-true Mr Right. Charisma, height, knowledgable, good-looking. He’s sick of girls posting friendster bulletins like - how many guys are willing to do that today, why girls cry, about women, 50 ways how to treat girlfriends, bla bla bla. Kuma Kuma is not at all like that. On the other hand, he doesn’t need girls to be too looks-conscious or to be prettier. In fact, he doesn’t like his partner baring too much skin as he doesn’t like other guys to be looking at his partner. He’s fine as long as she stays the way she is and she cares for him.

12. She may be more outspoken and have a stronger personality. But he’s not far below either. If both have tooo strong stand on their own principles, then fights are bound to happen often. He can guarantee her that he’s not that kind of person who quarrels. He prefers the soft, calm approach and to use reason to deal with problems. As for the outspoken part, he knows he’s a little too reserved and he will try to improve although he’ll never reach her outspoken level. Afterall, he has his own characteristic.

13. Both are students and don’t have a too big gap of mindset. They can go through the learning process of university life together. He cannot see what the long-term future after graduation holds. The only thing he knows is that he’s serious. He has had crushes before, but he has never try to get involved in relationships because he knows they’re not mature relationships and they’re bound to break. He felt that although it’s good experience, it’s pointless and not worth the time and effort. With the past crushes, he learns a bit about his immaturity and what kind of girls that he likes and won’t like. He has told himself that when he enters into a relationship, it will be a serious, long-term one. He won’t have the “Why so serious?” way of thinking.

14. He may still look young with his age. Only time and experience can bring that. He doesn’t want a one-way thing and he knows it’s not fair to ask one to wait, so she has the time to really think over it.

15. He has always been the kind of person who tries to be independent by himself. He doesn’t like asking for help. For example, he doesn’t like following his friend’s car to class even though his friend lives a stone throw’s away from his house. The thought of depending on his partner like a mother to make decisions for him is disgusting to him. It’s also an ego.

16. He’s not a very insecure person. Even when people laugh at him saying he’s little boy and baby Johnson, he laughs with them. Because he only cares what people close to him think about him, like her. In fact, they should not care about what others think of them.

17. He respects people’s privacy and space. From his time getting to know her, he trusts her to be a faithful partner. So, he won’t be a control freak.

18. He will try to improve himself as much as he can - language, physically, mentally, characteristically, and all-other-ly’s. He’s not promising anything but he can only assure her that he’s fully committed to the cause. He doesn’t want to make empty promises as he knows action speaks louder than words. So he’ll let actions do the talking. He hopes when they meet each other again, Kuma Kuma will be seeing a very much better Tevez. In a way, the month before their next meeting is a good thing.

19. He’s addicted to her face, her scent, her hair, her voice…. Her. He doesn’t think he can get bored when she’s such an addictive drug.

20. He thinks green is good for the eyes, he beleafs leafongism is magnifisern, he likes the leafont writing. He wishes that his girlfriend is hot like leaf, he wishes his girlfriend is leaf.

You'll always walk alone

This is going to be Liverpool's season.

They have big tanks of luck, good players and they play beautiful football, the right ingredients to be a champion.

Yes, they play beautiful football. That kind of exciting football where the ball can float in the air and never touch the ground for like a few minutes. It's full of suspense and excitement because we never know who's gonna win the possession. Although people say 90 minutes of watching Liverpool play are 90 minutes wasted, although their style brings up the issue of the definition of football, it doesn't really matter because they grind out results. Liverpool is the better form of Bolton. I don't understand why Liverpool hasn't been winning league titles for 18 years. Probably because in Liverpool, only 2 people know how to put the ball in the net.

Torres is walking alone in Liverpool

Their ball possession is very strong as they always manage to let someone far from their nearest opponent hold the ball, whether it is the horizontal distance or the vertical distance. For vertical distance, I explained in the previous paragraph, coupled with Liverpool players' aerial ability. As for horizontal distance, it's the kind of play that involves the goalkeeper a lot since the goalkeeper is the furthest player from the nearest opposing player. It's a good thing because normally in big teams which have good defence, goalkeepers have a lot of free time between the sticks and so, in Liverpool, it doesn't apply. That is why a Liverpool goalkeeper has to keep 100% concentration all the time as they are called on as often as any other infield player. Thus, when Reina makes his trademark howlers, you know he is forgivable.

They have rock solid defence. Opposing teams find it hard to breach their backline because even if they manage to put the ball in Liverpool's half, it never stays for long as it usually gets whacked back to the opponents half in no time. Such is the degree of difficulty.

Another thing good about Liverpool is, they make you play like them. If you realize, good teams, except the big four are normally playing Liverpool style when playing against Liverpool, making it an "end-to-end" game. Aston Villa for example plays good football under Martin O'neill, but when they play against Liverpool, they play like Liverpool. Thats how Liverpool make teams lose their style and then beat them. But, often this kind of games end up goalless.

And talking about good players, it fascinates me how many good players Liverpool has. Yes, Liverpool wins with good players. You don't have to be a fantastic player to play for Liverpool, as long as you are hardworking, you know how to cross from any angle and your first instincts when holding the ball in your own half is to pass to the goalkeeper. Liverpool makes dreams come true because thanks to them, any other average player can dream of joining a big team, Liverpool. To name a few: Charles Itandje, Álvaro Arbeloa, Andriy Voronin, Fabio Aurelio, Philipp Degen, Sami Hyypia, Emiliano Insua, Martin Skrtel, Nabil El Zhar, Lucas, Damien Plessis, Alberto Riera, Dirk Kuyt and David Ngog.

I miss Finnan

In the opener against Sunderland, Torres scored a stunning 83rd minuted winner. In the game against Middlesbrough, a late own goal and a Gerard screamer gifted Liverpool victory. They scored the only goal 2 minutes from the end of 210 minutes against Standard Liege to enter the Champions league group stage. Brown own goal gifted them equalizer against Man Utd and spurred them on to win 2-1. That's how the players get the chance to say this often: "It was a tough game. We sticked together, never gave up and managed to come out winners."

Dirk Kuyt, the guy with a million shots and 1 goal. Keep it up.

It's a common thing that an eventual champion would have a run of poor performances but manage to grind out the right results. Liverpool gives a whole new definition to this theory. They never looked like champions material with the players they have, they never play good football and still have all the luck in the world. If they're not going to win this season, I don't know who will.

Liverpool style is the way to go nowadays.

Racism

Touching on politics is so risky that I wouldn't take even the slightest chance. So I'm juz gonna ask you all one innocent question:

Wat punishment does an ordinary citizen get for racist remarks? Well, for a politician, he gets banned from politics. How about an ordinary citizen?

And friends, pls don't leave comments for this post.

To Dr Oink,

or else

and then

Hi!

fell in love with these 2 Japanese volleyball twin towers while following Olympics!

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I think my blog is going into coma, with finals occupying my next 2 weeks. As much as I wanna blog, I just don't know what to write. So, I'll let pictures do the talking for my blog at the moment.

I finally got the studio pictures for my bro's graduation. This is one of them.

The End

The Dark Knight was really hell of a movie that I watched it in the cinema three times. After watching it thrice, I couldn't understand why I was disappointed with the ending. In fact, I think it's a really meaningful and touching ending.

Gordon: The Joker won. Harvey's prosecution, everything he fought for. Undone. Whatever chance Gotham had of fixing itself, dies with Harvey's reputation. We bet it all on him. The Joker took the best of us and tore him down. People will lose hope.
Batman: No, they won't. They must never know what he did.
Gordon: Five dead? Two of them cops? We can't sweep that...
Batman: But the Joker cannot win. Gotham needs its true hero(turning Dent's face to show the good side). You either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become the villain. I can do those things, because I'm not a hero, unlike Dent. (turns to Gordon) I killed those people. That's what I can be.
Gordon: No, no you can't, you're not!
Batman: I'm whatever Gotham needs me to be.

It's really touching that Bruce still had the willingness to sacrifice himself to be the scapegoat of Harvey's killings after what happened to Rachel. I think Batman is the true example of a hero. Superman is not. Spiderman is not. Whatever else is not. Batman never answers to his popularity or the publicity. Like Gordon said in that final line of the movie, he's a silent guardian, a watchful protector, a Dark Knight. He silently sacrifices himself for the people of Gotham. He doesn't need people to know what he has done for them and at the same time, he's willing to be hated, to be the outcast.

The ultimate scene that moved me was when he said "I killed those people."

I think it's a kinda good message to us audience. If we care for someone, we sacrifice for them and we don't need to seek recognition or appreciation. Cos if you truly care for that someone, you just wanted the best for him/her. As long as he/she is well, you're content and you ask for nothing more.

And the more saddening part is, Rachel was not going to wait for Bruce even if she survived. If he knows about it, I think it will drive him nuts.

Respects

A course mate friend of mine passed away last Tuesday, to the shock of most in my course.

Being me, I was, if not the last, one of the last, to know about the news, and I didn't believe it when my friend first told me. When I came to realize that he was really gone, for a moment I was stunned.

There were different sets of stories at first about the cause of his death, from road crash to suicide. I guess that is the power of rumours. But, the real cause was something that really made us ruing his death because it was very avoidable. He fell from the 4th floor of his girlfriend's hostel as he was trying to get into her room through her window by climbing from the roof with a rope.

The buzz about his death wasn't strong among us because this semester he was repeating a number of last semester's subjects and most of all, he was kinda outcast because of his attitude problem. I remember he used to be quite a bad-tempered person, getting into hot arguments with lecturer and friends. As time went on, he mellowed down but still, his one-of-a-kind attitude made him isolated by friends and hated by some. Sometimes, I sympathized him for his social problem as he was most of the time alone by himself in uni. I think that's probably why most don't feel that much about his death.

Personally I don't have anything against him because I'm not really close to him and if we did make contact, we got along well. We greeted each other when we met and chatted a little at times. He was friendly and nice to me. We played futsal together occassionally when I joined the Applied Math gang's weekly futsal session. As I recall, he was in fact a good futsal player.

Here, I, as a friend, would like to wish you, Gideon Chan Wah Ghee all the best wherever you are. May you rest in peace.

Paying the price

The last few days have been sickening for me. I had an in-class assignment on monday and a lab test on tuesday. I woke up in the wee hours of the morning to study before going for both hurdles and I didn't even go to bed early. And the funny part is I'm gonna flunk both tests.

I am paying the price for my lackadaisical attitude during the past few weeks, not paying attention in lectures and not doing tutorials. I am so left out in every subject. I don't know why every semester has to be like that. Somewhere in the middle of the semester, I just have to lose the enthusiasm and the will to study. Last semester, I slacked right when I started the first week and managed to pick up towards the end of the semester. This semester I don't have the luxury of time anymore to catch up cos this time, I was hardworking for the first few weeks and slacked for every other week. It's week 12 and it's the climax of the semester, where assignments and exams come slapping your face all at one time. And I haven't been aware of what has been taught in lectures.

It's taking its toll on me. I couldn't sleep well and enough. And the ridiculous thing is I put myself through all these rigorous routines and I cannot do well in exams. It's becoming pointless. All the weeks of slacking have definitely left my brain rotten and rusty. I can sit at my table with my books for hours but I can tell you the hours spent have not been productive ones. I'm just sitting there for the sake of sitting there and comforting myself, the truth is I haven't putting in enough of effort and thinking on the subjects. I've been putting too much unnnecessary pressures on myself. I have people telling me that I'm now thinner than the already very thin me. And, I grow thinner for no reason cos I'm not doing any better in my exams! Fuck me!

My parents kept telling me to control that social bug in me, but really, I don't see myself as that sociable. Most of my time out with friends were occassional and fuck, normally the first thing I do after my classes end every day, I go back home. I have all the time in the world to study and yet I couldn't fare reasonably well. I must be really rotten.

I'm growing increasingly irritated with UTAR's schedule for actuarial science, which I think is killing me. There's so many subjects, so large syllabus, so many exams and so many assignments crammed into 14 weeks. I have lecturers who themselves are baffled that we even have exams and assignments in the last week of semester. We don't have time to really understand the subjects. The actuarial subjects are not like any other four-year course subjects. There's a reason for people to say actuarial science is tough. But it's being treated like any other course. That is why they have abnormal failure rate for some subjects. That failure rate coupled with the subject lecturer's own admission that the subject needs time shows that the time frame for this course is really unfair.

When the subject alone is already very tough, it's even worse when you let a stupid lecturer to teach it. The "Doctor" is freaking blur while teaching cos he comes to class unprepared, yet he has ridiculously high expectations of students, as if he's teaching a bunch of masters students. We are new to the subject but he expects us to know a lot of things and understand a lot of new things right away. His classes are really unproductive because little is learnt, defying the true purpose of a class, like in tutorials where only 3 or 4 out 20 questions are discussed.

But, in the end, I know I still have myself to blame.

Don't Cha (Leaf Version)

I know you like leaf
I know you do
That’s why we can be healthy if we eat more leaves,
I know you want leaf
She's easy to eat
And in the back of your mind I know you want to eat her.

Don’t you wish your girlfriend was hot like leaf
Don’t you wish your girlfriend was mad like leaf
Don’t cha
Don’t cha

Don’t you wish your girlfriend was round like leaf
Don’t you wish your girlfriend can eat like leaf
Don’t cha
Don’t cha

I know you like flavours,
I know you do
That’s why leaf got 4 different seasons for you,
Know you want green leaf
Yellow's not good
Sure no problem cos summer leaves are everywhere.

Don’t you wish your girlfriend can kill like leaf,
Don’t you ever dare make leaf angry,
Don’t cha
Don’t cha

Don’t you wish your girlfriend is green like leaf, like the Hulk,
Don’t you wish your girlfriend can sleep like leaf, like the pig
Don’t cha
Don’t cha

leaf: dun u wish yr girlfriend was hot like me..... doncha.. doncha

Muahahaha.......

Congestion

I think the increasing population of human is a big problem.

The number of students in my university alone is like wow. University bus to my area is crammed to every inch during peak hours; students flock to class like an army of ants, there’s just so many people. The way the number of human beings multiplies nowadays is crazy. Ask anyone around you, they’ll say they want at least 2 children. We’re gonna run out of space and air to breathe.

The problem with increasing population is standing out. Everyone wants to stand out and attract attention. Take a stone and throw it, you’ll hit a guy who has a super trendy punky hair. From observer’s point of view, I think it’s pathetic. People are desperate to impress each other by acting cool.

They cut that kind of hairstyle that obstructs the eyes’ view. Then, they keep adjusting their hair to the side. What’s the point of the whole hairstyle right? Or is it just intentional to act cool? They even have super cool rare English names. But, when they open their mouth, they struggle to come out with a decent English sentence. It’s funny.

The flurry of new singers, especially in the Chinese music industry, is another example of what I call desperate for attention. Many don’t have the talent, but they just want to be in the industry. And you see posters of them with all those cool poses around, I feel like throwing up. I remember in our very own local Superstar competition, the poses for their photoshoots are so geli. I don't even wanna start describing it.

Oh, am I running out of topic?

MIND-BLOWING

The Dark Knight blew me away.


The movie was overwhelmingly breath-taking that it wasn’t overshadowed by Heath Ledger's amazing performance as the Joker. Batman the reluctant hero, Harvey Dent the face of hope in Gotham, Rachel the reason of tangle for normal life, the message of the movie, the conflicts, the kick-ass action, the effects, the realism and everything else. Christopher Nolan made a masterpiece.

The bank robbery in the very beginning was damn exciting, giving the movie the perfect introduction for me. Adrenaline right from the start.

Grumpy: I'm betting The Joker told you to kill me as soon as we loaded the cash.
The Joker in mask: No, no. I kill the bus driver.
Grumpy: Bus driver? What bus driver?
[a school bus drives through the wall and kills Grumpy]

It was really sly of Joker to instruct each accomplice to kill his partner to raise own’s stakes of the loots. In the end, Joker was left with only one easy prey to kill and the money is all his! After all the meticulous efforts of teamwork, only one got the prize. That’s a really cunning, cruel plan.

I loved how he, as a complete stranger, can just crash into a mob bosses’ meeting, laughing and asking if their balls fell off, demanding for half of their loots, and none of the intimidating brawns and numbers could do anything to this one person.

"You think you can just come in and steal all our money and get away with it?”
Joker: Yes.

The crazy “pencil trick” that he gleefully performed, was enough of a reason for the mobs to give in to Joker’s demands. And it was a prelude to the audience of who this Joker guy really is.

The Joker: This town deserves a better class of criminal... and I'm gonna give it to them. Tell your men they work for me now. This is *my* city.
The Chechen: They won't work for a freak...
The Joker: [mocking his accent] A freak...
[pulls out his switchblade and tosses it to some goons who grab the Chechen]
The Joker: Why don't we cut you up into little pieces and feed you to your pooches? Hmm? And then we'll see how loyal a hungry dog really is. It's not about money. It's about sending a message.

He’s a really frightening, sadistic psychopath with no direction in life, an anarchist dedicated to chaos and mass killing. To him, it’s a pleasure, a sense of achievement and fulfillment in life.

Putting terror into people is a routine like the tormenting of the fake Batman on air and the variety of horrible scar stories. They’re all freaking freaky.

Joker: You know why I use a knife? Because I get to be up close to savor all of the... emotion. You see who people really are as they die. So, in a way, I know your friends better than you. Would you like to know which of your friends were cowards?

He doesn’t kill with a logical purpose. He kills just to see what people like Batman and Harvey Dent can do about it. And the more Batman thwarts his efforts, the more sense of challenge he feels and he gets more addicted to slaughter (Yeah, slaughter is the best medicine). It becomes an obsession.

"You wanna know how I got these scars??"

"Do I really look like a man with a plan, Harvey? I don't have a plan. The mob has plans, the cops have plans. You know what I am, Harvey? I'm like a dog chasing cars. I wouldn't know what to do with one if I caught it. I just DO things.”

And the way he does crimes, he involves everyone! He believes everyone is bad deep down by nature (which is partially true) and he tries to force the dark side in everyone out with all his smart tactics.

"I'm looking to add to my ranks, but I've only got one spot left, so we're going to have try outs." (breaks a stick to two and throws to the group of people)

He wants people to eat each other. He doesn’t have to do the killing part, the good people of Gotham do it! The threats to blow up the hospitals and ships are the perfect examples of his craftiness. The cop worried for his wife in hospital tried to take Reese out for good. The passengers in both ships were impatient of blowing each others’ ship. It’s really true that in desperate times, people’s evil sides surface.



Look at what Joker turned Harvey Dent into – a monster like himself. He was the white knight of Gotham, the face of optimism in the pessimistic city of Gotham. He’s the proof that there’s still hope of humanity in the city, trying to bring peace and protect the people. But, after just one very bad, terrible day, he becomes the complete opposite. It was a big transformation in short time.


That was what Joker constantly tries to do against Batman, forcing him to break his one rule of mercy, to finally cross the fine line between hero and vigilante by taking out a life. But the strong stand of Batman only makes Joker loves him more. He takes advantage of it. That’s why Joker does not worry about his physical vulnerability when against Batman, he dares to not defend himself. Imagine how big of a contribution it would have been if Batman would just knock him down with his lightning fast Batpod.


The physical beating, in fact, he loves it. Look at how wildly he laughed when he was tossed and turned by Batman in the interrogation room. It was like orgasm to him. And when Batman threw him down the building, he was laughing all the way down. What was he thinking??! He’s really insane. He’s fearless. I read that in the comics, Scarecrow once used the fear gas on Joker, and it didn’t fucking work!


"You seen Harvey Dent? You know where Harvey Dent is? You know where Harvey Dent is? I need to talk to Harvey Dent."

"dent, dent, dent, Harvey dent, oh! excuse me, i wanna drive"

"Oooo you wanna play come on....... come on"

I remember studying a short story in secondary school’s literature about a scientist inventing a sound machine. They called him mad because he was meticulous with every detail of his daily life, his process of inventing especially. Now what do you call Joker? That’s pure madness to the extent that he’s not mad! There are chilling theories that he’s actually not crazy, in fact he’s so sane that he sees more clearly than anyone else.

breathing the refreshing air of chaos

“No… I’m not crazy.”

"see I’m not a monster.... i’m just ahead of the curve"

No, I’m not done with his madness. Remember how he burnt the mountain of money? It’s a jaw-dropping moment especially that it was a crazy amount of money to have and he was sliding down the money mountain just moments before. And he burnt it? He’s fucking awesome. Yeah, money is not everything huh? HAHA.

And the scene in the hospital when Joker asked Harvey to shoot him with the gun pointing point-blank at his head? The whole conversation was bloody intense! It’s freaking mad of him that he doesn’t care Harvey was gonna pull the trigger any second. He just doesn’t care!

With Joker ever eager to test out Batman’s stance and Batman’s continual refusal to kill him, it was always going to be an everlasting rivalry. It’s what makes the relationship between Batman and Joker special. In the comics, Joker is really immortal, making a comeback each time no matter how impossible it was to survive an ordeal. But unfortunately, we’re not gonna see it in the movies franchise.


Frankly, I feel a bit discouraged to watch the next Batman movie with Two-face as the villain. I don’t like his theory of fair chance by flipping the coin. But, the fact that it’ll still be a CHRISTOPHER NOLAN movie is already a big reason to catch it.

The Joker: "You just couldn't let me go, could you? I guess this is what happens when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object. You are truly incorruptible, aren't you? You won't kill me out of some misplaced sense of righteousness . . . and I won't kill you because you're too damn fun. You complete me. We're going to do this forever."

This nutcase really had Batman stressed out and busier than ever. It’s just too hard for Bruce to cope with his every fatal move. The innocent citizens and people dear to him were put into danger because of his relationship with Joker. All the dilemmas he had – surrendering himself for good and thriving on the hope on Harvey, and thinking about finally wetting his hand with blood to solve the problem once and for all.


And when Rachel was blown up as he got tricked to save Harvey instead of Rachel, I thought it had to be the lowest moment of his life. Another loved one taken away from him after his parents. I really thought there was no reason left for him to carry on as the Batman. Saving the city – for what? He’s all alone now, without friends.


But he never gave up. Sacrificing himself to take the blame for Harvey’s killings says it all. For what happened to Rachel and for his identity, he was in position to be the scapegoat. And he was WILLING. He’s a really big character.

Son: Why is he running?
Gordon: Because we have to chase him.
Son: He didn’t do anything wrong.

And the accompanying ending music by Hans Zimmer was really fitting to wrap up the movie. I felt like crying, although I was a bit disappointed not to see Joker involved in the ending. But, I just have to mention, Hans Zimmer’s music throughout the movie was awesome.

A great piece of work The Dark Knight is.

Random

There are some things about certain type of girls that I dislike.

First of all, girls trying to teach guys how to treat girlfriends. In Friendster, many girls post bulletins with titles like the perfect boyfriend, how many guys are willing to do that today, why girls cry, about women, 50 ways how to treat girlfriends, bla bla bla. Secondly, girls saying things like oh, my boyfriend should be like this, like that, only guys with this kind of body figure or character can court me and the list goes on. I am actually annoyed by all these things.

I mean, I understand very well all these wants because they are unwritten rules. They are all very true and perfectly normal. I have nothing against people who think that way. But the thing is, when you publicly "announce" it, it gets on my nerves. It all sounds to me that girls are so majestic, so highly that guys have to impress them, give the world to them, take the moon down for them and whatever. But, when guys teach girls how to treat boyfriends, I support them. Fact is, whether guys or girls do that, it is still ANNOYING.

Who are you to demand such things? Are you the perfect person with good looks, hourglass body figure and with the kind of character every person dream of in their partner? If yes, then I have no qualms about you laying down the rules and requirements in your hunt for your Mr/Mrs Right. But, I'm not interested to know. It's pretty much the same theory with the "arrogance is confidence" thing. When you're good, you can be arrogant. When you're a good-looking, personally attractive person, you can demand.

It is this realistic.

why do we fall?

So we can learn to pick ourselves up.

It was that life-altering fall that started everything. The death of Bruce's parents, the revengeful anger that never fade but grows, the isolation, the fateful meeting with Ra's, the making of his combat skills, leading to the ultimate birth of Batman. All in all, he took 7 long years to pick himself up.

I fell today. I screwed up my stats test. It's not to say that I'll fail it, but considering everything prior to the exam, i'll consider it screwed up. I actually pontenged one whole day to prepare for the exam. I had all the time in the world to get ready for it. With that, I expected more out of this test.

After going through 2 hours of stocproc exam, all of a sudden, 1 hour for this seemed too fast. I took some sweet time on the first question, and when i finished it, it was about 20minutes to the end. Immediately, I went frantic, mind raced, and blackout. I didn't finish that second question, and to make me more depressed, I was actually looking at the similar question just before the exam. I should have known how to do. Haih

As much as I want to mourn, I don't have the luxury and time to get "carried away" with this disappointment. Another do-or-die exam coming up. I'm already up and walking, but not studying yet, cos I'm writing this. Heck.

Good things come in small packages?

I'm beginning to feel more comfortable with my height.

Among my good ol' Klang friends, i'm among the shortest, if not the shortest. Although I still have around 2 years or so to catch up, I don't think I'll ever shoot up since I don't play basketball.

Being short for a guy does damages to his self-esteem. I get teased about it occasinally cos sometimes I look like a small kid with my choice of clothes and clothes size. As a guy, of course you want to stand tall and look like a man. It's a big disadvantage in terms of attracting girls. Hehe.

But over the years, I've come to realise that it's pointless getting frustrated because I know my efforts normally are short-lived and I won't go to the extreme to grow taller. I accept my height. Afterall, in a way, being short is not entirely bad.

If you look at a group of tall people with an odd short one(outlier eh?), which particular person do you notice? Hehe. In a way, I "stand out". I remember in the Korean drama "Stairway to Heaven", the main actor, a director or whatever of the company is quite a short guy by their normal standard. And he walks around with a gang of taller, bigger-sized subordinates and bodyguards following from behind, all in tuxedos. How cool is that?

It's inspiring. Haha.

random rant...

I'm getting more and more frustrated with some things.

First, my timetable. Before, I had only one 8am class and my days in uni usually end accordingly to the bus schedule where I come out from the classroom straight into the bus. Now, after the many changes, I have three 8am classes and I have to wait at least 45 minutes for the damn bus to get back home for majority of the days! Come on, it's Euro's month!

Of course, I have the option of following friends' cars home(which I did today), but I dislike the feeling of asking for a favour. What's more, it's almost on daily basis that I am in need of transport back home and I'm not good friends to any of my coursemates. It will only increase the feeling of indebtedness in me.

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Second, my lecturer. Among all my lecturers this semester, one particular lecturer stands out. It's not the one i said i admire, it's one that I hate the most. The hatred grows with time, in fact, the word "hate" can easily upgrade to "despise" in no time.

He's a guy, a more than qualified lecturer with doctorate, short, round, fleshy, specky, and looks so innocent, and carries a fat backpack which resembles himself to class. From first impression alone, he's already far behind the lecturer whom i said i admire(not to mention the real running race).

What makes me so irritated with this doctor is, sometimes he has a glass of teh tarik in class-taking refreshing sips while pausing, he's clumsy, he comes to class unprepared (probably bcos he thinks he's a doctor), he's freaking blur, he needs a lot of pauses to think over the facts he's teaching us, he needs to be corrected all the time, sometimes he insists his steps are correct although basically it's already wrong(it feels funny when he still insist), he makes funny, disgusting noises with his nose while talking(pity the mic), he blows his nose out loud out of sudden in the middle of the class, he uses the tissue he blew his nose with to wipe the board, he writes with invisible marker pen ink, he uses font size "smallest" on the board, he writes piles of shit on the board, he writes more than he speaks, he introduces the ridiculous rule of allowing only 5 of out of 20 tutorial questions to be discussed and he wants us to do the questions ourselves and hand them up when we don't have a single idea what he does in lectures.

Remember what i said about confidence? Yeah, this lecturer has the confidence. I can see it from his face when he explains things. But, how the heck can you trust or admire or respect this guy after you read the previous paragraph? In fact, I feel funny looking at his innocent face when he's lecturing. He can just write one grandmother story on the board, and anytime you have to erase everything you just copied and start from square one again because the whole thing is wrong. It's not just once or twice.

What amazes me more is why the heck only 2 or 3 students failed his subject??! The students must have passed through self-study and sheer hard work. I feel so grateful when I finally got the reference books for the subject. Have been like a stranger to the subject and now, I finally got to know a thing or two about wats the subject about. Who's the better teacher?

I was already thinking about what to write for the end-of-semester evaluation of the lecturers, but soon I realised it could be very risky because as far I know, he's the head lecturer, he's a doctor and I think he's got some high-level post in the uni organisation(with great power comes great possibility of power abuse). Before I knew it, I could be barred from the exam or sitting for the supplementary exam or seeing his innocent face again in his class next semester.

Once, when my friends and I passed by him near the com lab, I said, "Look, our favourite lecturer". My friend smiled and said "Don't too loud ah..". I soften down a bit but then after thinking for a while, wasn't it a compliment?

Yea, I know, u can tell me of what I could have done in terms of my own effort. I could have asked my friends on the subject, or check out for useful books in the library, spend some 5 hours on the subject a day, surf for info on the net, sit in the first row and ask questions and so on.

Haha, you're right.

Arrogance is confidence

"Maybe people always kick me because i'm too good. I don't know why."

Cristiano Ronaldo

Yes, arrogance is confidence. If you are very good in what you do, you have the licence to be arrogant. People don't have reason to tell you off because you have the quality, the substance, the value to the society. In fact, in general, many girls like arrogant guys for their confidence and unpredictability.

I have the utmost respect for people who have the substance. For example, I really admire one of my lecturers who is very good in his math field. He can just enter the lecture hall with a thin set of self-made notes, a small plastic bag of marker pens and duster for the board, and get the lecture going. And there's this bit of arrogance about him that impresses me more - his confident look on his face, the sleaves rolled up his arm, the way he walks and talks. I would feel rather intimidated to talk to him because of his overwhelming confidence.

Now, the thing about arrogance that annoys me here is, people who are yet to achieve anything in life, and yet they are arrogant - people who are arrogant for the wrong reasons. For instance, good-looking people who become cocky because of the attention they get. The pride that comes from the constant attention gets into these people and make them think they are important people in the society. Fact is, they have nothing to show off. Beauty is not a talent.

For me, if you have a degree, you speak good English, then you show off to me.

And oh, by the way, I have bad news for Chelsea fans:

after missing the decisive penalty

charged my hand

I got electrocuted today.

I tried to check out the light bulb that was not working and forgot to switch off the power(the stupidest thing people can ever do). After taking out the bulb, I accidentally touched the power source point and I could feel strong electric current travelling from my middle fingertip up to my shoulder. Of course, normal reflex pulled my hand out before my whole body gets roasted. Playing safe, although there were no aftermath effects, I visited the doctor and got good news. But, until now, I am actually still worrying.

Nowadays, logic doesn't really happen all the time. Like Tomohiro Kato, no logic explains his actions. When u tease someone harmlessly, that someone may feel the need to bash you up, which is the reason I always prefer to stay out of trouble. Some people die of unexplained natural causes. Some people may look at his best health today but tomorrow is a different story.

I am scared.

Joker-wannabe

"Some men aren't looking for anything logical. They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn."

This is one of the many proofs:



This damn guy drove a truck and rammed into pedestrians deliberately, then came down and went on a stabbing spree, which killed 7 people in total. Motive? No motive. It's surely mental problem, like Joker.

the Joke is on you

Mayor: What've we got?
Lt. James Gordon: Nothing. No name, no other alias. Clothing is... custom. Nothing in his pockets but knives and lint.

Here is my card

Fooohhh... Joker makes me insanely passionate about the next Batman movie, The Dark Knight, due to be released on July 18. This one is way bigger than Batman Begins. I can't get enough of Joker.

coming to cut the joke

I love the theme of the show, which is dark and grim, like Harvey Dent said, "The night is darkest just before the dawn." In Gotham city, which is a hopeless, corrupted city ruled by endless crimes, things are bleak, people die gruesomely, citizens are always terrified and safety is last. It's a worse feeling than the fear of doomsday cos in this place you're so innocent to deserve something like that. I think the current world is becoming more like Gotham bcos "Some men aren't looking for anything logical. They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn."


When you hear "I knew the mob wouldn't go down without a fight. But this is different. They crossed the line. ", you know there's a new challenger.

Evening, Commissioner...

Heath Ledger's portrayal of Joker is really scary, even Morgan Freeman, as Lucius Fox was left terrified until he forgot his lines. The way he leaves his trail, with the burning Joker card, the way he hit eye contact with you, the way he screams like mad man, he really scares the shit out of you. When he said "People will die. I am a man of my word(plus that devilish laughter)", I believe he meant it. And, he brought chaos throughout the city of Gotham.

I really love the psychopath. He's crazy, insane, deranged, and terrifying.

This city deserves a better class of criminal and I'm gonna give it to them.

And in between all those insanities of killing people brutally, driving people insane, terrorizing the people, he can still have good sense of humour. That kind of humour that is funny but the victims are too terrified to think it's hilarious. I like the part where he crashed into the night ball, shooting in the air and saying "Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. We're tonight's entertainment."

He's that kind of villain that leaves you constantly worrying what he will do next. Even Batman was nervous and didn't know how to deal with him. He told Alfred "People are dying. What would you have me do?". Last time, Bruce Wayne overcome his fear of bats and thought he became fearless. This is different. This guy is clearly a sick nuisance capable of doing anything shitty enough. And he will always be breathing down Bruce's neck. It's a whole new level of fear.

Why... so... serious?

With Gotham banking on him alone to face this monster, it's a big demand of him. Bruce is afterall just a normal superpower-less human being, who needs a normal life and love too. The way he has to suppress his fears everytime he puts on his Batsuit, it takes a lot of courage and sacrifice cos he does it all by himself.

It's one hell of a movie, that is worth the hours wasted on writing this blog entry. Yeah, I'm one sick guy who loves Joker. July 18 is a joke. Why the hell so long??

It's all... part of the plan.

degrading criminals

criminals like rapists, robbers, thieves and even loiterers are sampah masyarakat. From loiterers, they are promoted to thieves, then to robbers, then to rapists.

Loiterers are stupid people who sit at the shopping complex corridor for the whole day, doing nothing except smoking, talking trash, staring and whistling at girls. They have nothing better to do in their lives. I walk past them, feeling disgusted everytime, and feeling like spitting at them or just throwing some coins at them. Thieves and robbers are selfish people who have a pair of capable hands and legs each, but refuse to use them to right worth. Rapists are sex-addicts who think people's assholes are for them.

These people has no worth or value to the society. They are failures who don't achieve anything in life and don't deserve to live.

insecurities

never thought i would write this cos it's embarrassing and who knows, when girls know my weaknesses, they would kick me out of potential bf list. haha.

i am quite a pampered child, really. From young, I have been brought up in a comfortable environment and my parents never really made me do things or taught me. And so, the now me is a blur kid who doesn't do house chores and a whole lot of other basic things.

There are a lot things about me that are laughable. The way I sweep or mop the floor. The consistent clumsiness and all. As much as I feel like a failure cos I dont help out with house chores, laziness always wins over me.

I grew up being fetched by people of course, but I never really pay attention or tried to remember roads and locations. Yea, I have a bad sense of direction. I live in Klang but there're a lot of places that I don't know how to go. Nowadays, it improves a bit lah cos I drive more often, but there's so much that I still need to learn. I remembered once I drove my friends to collect ang pows during CNY and I brought them to "Holland". It was kinda embarrassing cos I was fetching 2 girls some more! And the worse thing is, I forgot where is the girls' houses ad.

Life is complicated, but I always kinda refuse to accept the complexities of things. I try to take things easy and simple, and be more accepting of whatever situations that come although sometimes it doesn't make sense. I mean, I tend to avoid thinking too much and accept things as they are. Sometimes, when I do that, I sound stupid. If you know what I mean. I bet you don't.

And, I must admit that I'm one who appreciate my time at home. I think I inherited it from my dad, cos my dad usually prefers to sleep through his free time rather than go out. That's why sometimes I rejected fren's invitations to go out bcos of laziness. But, I do have the going-out urge la.

I really admire my male friends who has scars from injuries like falling from bike or stuff like that. Growing up being at home most of the time, needless to say, I am normally injury-free. It's not something to be proud of for me. Sometimes, I enjoy getting injured like bruises or swells from playing futsal. But, I always escape unscathed from the games. Players are grateful for that, but I wonder why I don't get injured.

the male brain

I took this from JuinGiap's friendster profile. It's freaking funny and most of the time, True.

indirect sarcasm

Indirect sarcasm is an art. I mean, to me, it is a very classy way of "shooting" people or talking back. Rather than being straight and making a person instantly angry, it is better still to beat around the bush, say something different but will ultimately lead to the intended meaning, letting the victim do some thinking before figuring out the real meaning. When the victim could not understand the indirect meaning, it makes him or her look silly. When the victim understands, heck cool. Sometimes, the in-between pauses before the victim really understands it also make them look foolish enough.

Now, the good part is, we never really say what we mean. The victim cannot directly blame or scold us bcos we didn't actually say it! The meaning of what we say depends on individual interpretation sometimes. You can always deny that you intended to mean it, with that yeah-i-mean-it look on your face. How frustrating will that be for the victim? Cos deep in the heart, the victim knows it, feels "pedas" but cannot do anything.

Sometimes, people are being unreasonable in quarrels and it is no point to explain or reason with them. In these situations, indirect sarcasm works best. We can admit defeat in an irritating way like "Yea, I can't do all these cos i'm not as "smart" as some people. His IQ is so high.. bla bla bla."

In fact, most of the time, this method is useful. You can spare the time spent on defending yourself and instead, admit defeat but make the winner look stupid. You don't need to win arguments with unreasonable people. Indirectly, you are the winner already cos in the end the one who feels the heavier embarrassment is not you.

It is obvious that people who keep shooting you just wants to irritate the hell out of you and make you angry. When you're angry, he/she wins. The more angry you are, the more you fight back and defend yourself, the happier he/she is. It is a trap for you to fall in. These people are prepared for arguments and have the points ready. So, you will only feel angrier and angrier at the end of the quarrel. Victory for the shooter. So, in these situations, we don't need to defend ourselves. We can just admit defeat by saying "yeah, I'm stupid" with that sarcastic, irritating oh-i'm-actually-stupid look on our faces. In your heart, you don't care what the person says. With that thick face, we are emotionally immune to their verbal abuse. We don't need to feel angry unnecessarily for the wrong reasons for the rest of the day bcos we have a life to get on with. And we can always take comfort from the fact that these people are so free to irritate us because we must have something that they are jealous of, or dengki.

Maybe, the main question to whether you need to defend yourself is, who is the person shooting you. Of course, if a close friend or direct family member talks bad about you, it hurts. You need to defend yourself bcos you care for your relationship with them. If some unimportant people comments negatively about you, why bother to defend youself or even care? They are not somebody to you. Their comments and what they think are not important to you. Unless if it affects your circle of friends' impression on you then you need to do something lah.

Of course, I'd like to learn more of indirect sarcasm cos it feels good when you manage to pull it off. But, most of the time, I feel it's better to be conservative a bit and stay out of trouble. If you lose arguments, you feel down in the dumps, thinking about it for the rest of the day. If you win arguments, you never know what sore losers will do to you next. After you say that you don't mean something with that yeah-i-mean-it face, the victim may give you a sweet punch on your innocent face. However, all these problems are bound to happen, so it's how wisely you deal with it that matters.

haihh... study....

One uni semester is like one season long of the football premier league. Its long, draining and exhausting. I think maintaining the motivation is very important to keep you going for the rest of the semester, like keeping the passion for the season.

When last semester began, I was just back from the 3 months plus long holiday, and I was not fresh, still in the holiday mood. Concentration, keeping up-to-date with lectures, doing tutorials, exams were all problems. Plus, there was the Chinese new year holidays. In short, I was slacking like shit. I took some time to recover, slowly getting my rhythm back. But, it came at an expense. I sacrificed a lot of time and had to double the effort since I was left out so much.

It is very important to have a good start. You would prefer doing things on schedule than doing all last minute in a short period of time, which is insane.

wat happened??

I used to have a close female friend since my last year holidays. It was a platonic friendship because she is 2 years older than me and she had a steady boyfriend of 5 years. We actually spent a lot of time together through daily work, activities and trip, and we had fun together. We used to be chatting all night during the holidays and I would usually share my problems with her because she was so caring as a friend, good listener and she made me felt comfortable.

But, after the new year started, we continued on our different paths of uni life, and we were very less in touch. Up to a point, she started to treat me coldly- giving one-liners in msn conversations, didn't reply my sms, rejecting our yum cha sessions and finally locking up her blog to personal blogger friends only. All these cues are very subtle and it could be just me being over-suspicious, but there is certainly a big difference between last time and now. I can't help to think that it was me that caused it.

Maybe, it is because of my tendency to take advantage of her care by talking about my problems all the time and neglecting her feelings and problems totally. I may have gone overboard with her, treating her like a listener, turning to her only when I have problems and then ignorant of her own problems.

Or perhaps I was kinda two-faced. I know, many people think of me as an innocent guy and she likes the innocence of me. But, I am not completely innocent inside. Sometimes, I can be mean and cruel. The different faces that show through time maybe made her realize she was wrong and she started to lose the interest in the friendship.

It could be my selfish nature of not making the effort to keep in touch with her after new year. She was actually the one taking the initiative to make plans to meet up while I just waited to be invited. When she doesn't do it, me either didn't make much effort to catch up with her news through sms or set up a reunion. I don't have the habit of planning things. When only one party is doing much of the work to keep the friendship going strong, she gets frustrated. I know, I suck. I really hate myself for not appreciating such a good friend.

When I think about all these possible causes, it drives me crazy- the wondering and guessing game is torturous. Whether or not the reasons above are the real causes, I admit that sometimes I was aware I was doing it, but still I never change the bad habits. I feel really bad for what I have done. I am really sorry. I know it is now on me to make things better, but sorry seems to be the hardest word. I don't know what to do.

calling names...

Chinese names today are becoming more and more creative. People now tend to assimilate foreign names especially English into their children's Chinese names, like how the Malay language borrows heavily from English.

For example, Ng Jenny or Ng Jen Nee, Lee Mary, Tan Alex, all of which are just my examples but really, there're a lot of similar names nowadays. Last time, the English words are supposed to be their Christian or English names, which is placed before the surname. Now, they have totally been "Chinese-d".

Maybe it's because when you identify someone with his/her English names too much, the Chinese names are usually forgotten or even ignored. So, they might as well put it as their Chinese names. Although sometimes I do think that we, as Chinese should stick to Chinese names as it is our identity, I admit it's always easier to remember English names. And I know I myself am a Chinese illiterate and I'm kinda shameful to admit.

But, some people go to the extreme with names. Recently, I saw one: Chen Caesar. This is the ultimate one and it's so omg. He even put Julius as his English name. I mean, we as Malaysians will never get used to calling our own people exotic names like this in Malaysia. It's very awkward and weird. In fact, people make fun of it. "Caesar? Caesar?" almost like "scissor? scissor?". Yes, me.

THE EPIC VICTORY

There it is. Manchester United is the champions of Europe! The match is one of the most amazing games that I have ever watched. Nail-biting, nerve-wrecking, heart-weakening(you need a heart of Ironman to watch this game) and it really brought out the emotions in fans, especially me. It had everything you can ask for- passion, tension, great footwork, great moves, great saves, a bit of compassion, fights, red card, yellow cards, tears, elation and some wonderful open football ....... the most emotional day!

When Paul Scholes broke his nose early in the game and had a lot of blood oozing out, I was so worried because it would be a disaster for him if his involvement in the game was to end that way. But he came back after treatment to perform brilliantly when he combined with Brown to create the Ronaldo goal. The '99 final memories is now finally behind him.


The number 42 will always be a special number that I will remember because it is the number of goals Ronaldo scored overall in this season and it is the number of my house address.

When Tevez and Carrick missed 3 golden chances, the pain was excruciating. They were so agonizingly close to wrapping up the game by half time. Instead, they conceded a very unlucky goal just before half-time and won it the hard way, all the way to extra-time and penalty shootout.

Chelsea took confidence from the equalizer and then dominated the second half. Suddenly, I felt like it was Barcelona again cos we were under so much pressure from Chelsea's attacks and we couldn't hold on to possession and create chances. You can't tell how much relief I felt when Drogba and Lampard's shots on goal hit the posts and away from the goal. The tension was so immense.

I felt increasingly frustrated as all the beautiful chances that United created was either missed, saved or cleared off the line. Petr Cech saved 2 in the 1st half and when Terry headed Giggs' seemingly destined-to-be goal shot away, the frustration hit maximum. I thought if we were to lose that game, it was going to be the darkest day of my life thinking how they missed all those chances.

And then, my friend received a false sms update that Chelsea scored. I was very depressed for a very long period of the game, thinking that I was going to see Chelsea score in a few minutes time. But, fortunately it was a goal that never was.

And it was made all the more tense when the players started to fight 5 minutes before the shootout. The Chelsea players were angry because Tevez deliberately kicked the ball out for a throw-in instead of passing it to Cech as a mark of showmanship. It's ridiculous for Chelsea to act that way bcos they did it twice earlier in the game!! Though I didn't really know what was the cause at that time, when I saw Drogba being shown the red card for slapping Vidic, I was so happy and disgusted at the same time. Go off you fucker Drogba. Good as you may be, but you are such a shame and disgrace. Diver, actor, temperamental, whiner.

When it reached shootout, I thought the sending off was of no impact to our hopes of winning the game. But, I was very confident of Van der Sar cos earlier in the season he saved a hattrik of penalty kicks from Chelsea players in the Community Shield. But it went so wrong that of all people, Ronaldo missed his kick and Van der Sar couldn't save any of first four. It became too stressful to watch.

When John Terry stepped up to take Chelsea's final kick that was to be the winning kick if he scored it, I thought it was going to be the lowest moment of my life. I was prepared to cry my heart out. As nervous I am, but I never really thought he would miss it or Van der Sar would save it.

And to my surprise, he slipped at the most important moment and missed it. It was crazy. We were all so happy. It was like a patient whose heart has stopped beating coming back to life again and the heart started to beat again. The glimmer of hope started to shine brightly. The dim fire of the candle suddenly became a blaze. At that moment, we started to believe again. I felt like we were already almost there and it was going to be fate that we win it. Now I believe it that there can be miracles when we believe.

When Van der Sar saved Anelka's kick, we were celebrating and shouting like mad people. We were euphoric. It was the best moment of my life. It's difficult to describe the euphoria. Nothing beats this. Suddenly, I feel like my life is so much more meaningful.

It's fate that Man Utd has to win this. I don't care if you come to me and tell me that Man Utd is lucky to win, Chelsea deserved to win or anything like that. At the end of the debate, the champions is still Man Utd.

Hail Manchester United the double champion!