Random post again

Things have been going well for me of late as I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now. The feeling of having a clear sense of path or direction in life is great, in contrast with the painful wait for my degree result in october when I was full of question marks of what path of life my eventual result will take me.

I'm currently working as a part-time research assistant with my masters due to start in january and I will have sufficient time to study for my society exams as well since the classes are night sessions. It's like a new life and I'm kinda excited to kickoff the new year. Career, to a man, means everything to his pride. Ask yourself, what's your value?

On a side note, I've always have a dilemma in my approach to life. Which would you prefer, try your best and be positive in life, or try your best and be negative and expect the worse result?

My approach is the latter and from experience, it comes with nightmarish pressure and stress although the results are there sooner or later. During my previous preparations for my last degree finals and exam FM, for example, I got over-stressed to the extent that I fell sick on both occasions. The bright side of this approach is that I'm always critical of my own performance however sufficient it is and I was never satisfied with what I have done, which paves the way for improvement.

When you tried your best but expect the worse result, imagine the euphoria when the result turned out to be a good one. It's a joy. Haha

Have a nice day.

Hola!

My brain's thoughts have been messy for some time so i'll just use keywords to describe wats playing in my lost mind.

soft skills, japanese, french, fm-dec, c, mlc-next yr, girl, nov b'dayS, apply um-call them, applied stats, upm/ukm-bangi, serdang (far!), result- cgpa 3.0(PLEASE), work half a year(reluctantly) -prudential, AIA, ING, pj room(release?), i want a car, grow up, bored, read a book, man utd, pro evo soccer, leave those attention desperados alone-some busybody ppl will entertain them, wats yr value?, shut the fuck up if u contribute nothing to the society, getting along with difficult ppl, are parents' expectations justified or just too pushing?, getting ready for society, girls who think they are the world-pathetic.

Can someone organize my thoughts for me?

It has been some hectic weeks with exams and assignments, which will continue for the next 2 weeks. Its the typical business part of the semester, where we accumulate our coursework marks for the comfort going into the finals.

But this time it is not that typical anymore, given the fact that i'll be going through this process of coursework and finals for the final time in my degree. It's my last chance of salvaging my pride and future with a decent result to show. To make it even more dramatic, i'm in danger of being relegated to 2nd lower class with my cgpa(3.0) like an egg on a horn.

1st class: 3.5-4
2nd class upper: 3-3.499
2nd class lower: 2.2-2.999

If I ever dropped 0.1, i'll be no different from a cgpa 2.2 student. Wtf.

So i've been putting in some hardwork in there and i'm beginning to reap the rewards from the encouraging results. But of course there're lotsa things sacrificed like time with friends and my ENGLISH, which explains my absence from my blog.

And then there comes another brain-killer question of which path i'm gonna take after finishing my degree. At 20, i'm certainly not gonna venture into the working world, put myself into unnecessary pressure and rob me of my childhood adoslescence. I'm gonna make sure i'm mentally and substance-wise prepared before doing that.

I may end up studying masters in UM, singapore, utar or doing full-time studies for professional exams. And i tell u, the chances of me doing one of the options above is as good as any other, which goes to show my indecisiveness.

Mental breakdown: 4 more tests and 1 more assignment in 2 weeks time.

Ella Koon

Ella Koon(left) is hot! So is Megan Fox!

My controversial self

I develop a lot of negative first impression on people whom I'm not close with, or should i say pre-judgment/jump-to-conclusions/stereotype. Seriously. I tend to have this notion that this world has so many people vying for attention of everybody else and so they try desperately to stand out, which make them look like losers to me, when in fact they're obviously not. It's just a thought in the head and i never make these thoughts known or complain or whatsoever. It's just a thought until I really get to know the true story behind something.

For example, I have this disgust at people trying to blast people in their msn display msg, talking confidently about achieving some impossible targets when in fact they were once dropouts and have no achievements or whatsoever to boast of, writing love quotes about making sacrifices when people can only doubt whether u practice what u preach, scolding people constantly as if u're at the wrong end of things all the time, talking about having their patience tested as if they're someone who should not be messed with, etc. Such is my negativity of people. I just get this feeling that these people are just attention desperados who want to be thought of as having personality.

Sometimes when in a group of friends, someone tries to do lotsa "stunts"/actions/tantrums to cheer up the mood, I often take them as desperate attempts to impress the people around especially girls. Its quite distinguishable between genuine jokes and jokes intended to impress. While honest jokers get absorbed in the joke itself, attention desperados jokers usually cares too much about people's reaction to the joke that u can see from their eyes lingering around to look for response whether they are impressed or not. Sometimes when the joke is not funny at all and noone's laughing, it becomes lame, pathetic, and ironically funny bcos of the patheticness.

And I also have this terrible pre-judgment of people who describe themselves in friendster and blogger profiles. Those who talks highly of themselves sounds boastful to me. Some people go to the extent of stating their exact excellent result grades on the friendster profile. But then when people talk about them being just ordinary/simple/next-door/normal people, I also feel that they're seeking for attention rather than really being humble. What's wrong with me?! The problem to me here is too many people are saying that they are just ordinary people that it sounded to me they're trying to boast about being ordinary and at the same time different from others.

My point here is a lot of things can be done quietly with action, not talk. If u're aiming for something really ambitious, then do it first before u start boasting about it like how man utd players do. When u're not happy with someone, then try yr best to solve the problem rather than just banging people on msn display msg. When u have thoughts about your own relationship, then keep it personal and if u're a good partner then surely the resulting strong relationship will be there for all to see. You don't have to make it sound like the whole world revolves only around you. We can do it the kris allen way, quietly getting on with your job and ultimately gets the job done.

Then again, after all these crap, it's just necessary to mention that I'm not complaining cos they're just my negativity and opinions. I was talking about people's weaknesses above, and this negativity is my weakness.

The title of this post? The TITLE!

Yeah, man utd are champions again after today's result which means liverpool players can ask benitez to leave them out for west brom's game. And I'm here again to take a swipe at the man himself, Rafa Benitez.

After all that you bragged about, man utd is still the champion and Liverpoo(no L) is empty-handed. Ironies:

1. He wants to win the league with the likes of David Ngog, Dirk Kuyt, Albert Riera, Damien Plessis, Lucas, Nabeh El Zhar, Martin Skrtel, Emiliano Insua, Sami Hyypia, Andrea Dossena, Phillip Degen, Fabio Aurelio, Alvaro Arbeloa, all of whom are west brom-quality players. Such is Rafa's talent-scouting abilities and financial disadvantage is not a good excuse when you buy these kind of players.

2. If Liverpool didn't win the league bcos Torres and Gerard were injured for long periods, then surely Arsenal should be the champion.

3. Man Utd played an energy-sapping 66 games, 11 more than Liverpool. Utd went to the far far away land of Japan to play the World Club Cup competition, won the community shield, went all the way to win the carling cup, entered the FA cup semi final, and now into Champions League final. Liverpool players had so many beer breaks and Rafa had all the time in the world to come up with a masterplan, but still he couldn't outwit Sir Alex. That's why it's SIR Alex.

4. Rafa humiliates Liverpool and Gerard. Liverpool is the only team who lost only 2 games but didn't win the title while Gerard is a player of the year without a single premier league medal. Phillip Neville has 6, Alan Smith has 1, that shit Silvestre has a couple.

5. Liverpool drew with Stoke twice and lost to relegation-bound Middlesbrough.

6. Is Rafa the only one who goes against the theory "the table doesn't lie"? He said being first in the league only means more points and u're not necessarily the best. Instead, the best team is chosen according to the time of the season(consistency doesn't count?). I think he will agree that the first in the league is the best team in the country when he wins the league one day. This season, he didn't win. So this season the first is not the best. Hmmm....

What's yr take?

IDIOT

Tevez has a thorn/pain-in-the-ass/drogba in his family, creating all sorts of unnecessary problems that other non-extended families do not experience. It's robbing him of a happy family life:

1. Dad has an extra person(grown up) to feed
2. Mom don't get to control the astro remote after coming back tired from work
3. Dad has to deal with all kinds of non-existent, unnecessarily-created problems
   
4. the family have to see a self-claimed matured person swearing from time to time
5. Grandma has to hear her own son(not tevez's dad) cursing her to death every now n then
6. when they go out for holidays they get accused of not being caring to Grandma
7. when they speak loudly to hearing-aided Grandma they get accused of being rude to her
8. when they frown while helping Grandma they get accused of being insincere to her
9. when they need help to care for Grandma, the idiot would not help
10. tevez gets called from the backroom to the living room to switch on the tv switch for the idiot
    
11. when Dad put food on the table the idiot complains its too much tat they throw them away in the end
12. when Dad put less food on the table the idiot complains its too little
13. when Grandma says she doesn't want to watch the tv, the idiot switches on the tv for her and then tells her tat the tv is on for too long and it will spoil
14. when the idiot was doing the mopping, he complains he's doing all the hard job
15. when Dad takes over the mopping the idiot complains the floor is not clean enough
16. when they watch the tv for kinda long the idiot complains the tv is too hot for the whole day
17. when the idiot has a new show to catch he takes over yr slot and slaps u if u fight for the remote
18. when man utd beats arsenal 1-0, arsenal is good bcos they managed to keep the deficit by only one goal
19. when arsenal beat man utd, arsenal is good bcos they win
20. Dad the breadwinner cannot eat 2 rounds for dinner
    

He enjoys being ungrateful to people who are feeding and sheltering him. He enjoys ruining a family, like how Joker would.