My controversial self

I develop a lot of negative first impression on people whom I'm not close with, or should i say pre-judgment/jump-to-conclusions/stereotype. Seriously. I tend to have this notion that this world has so many people vying for attention of everybody else and so they try desperately to stand out, which make them look like losers to me, when in fact they're obviously not. It's just a thought in the head and i never make these thoughts known or complain or whatsoever. It's just a thought until I really get to know the true story behind something.

For example, I have this disgust at people trying to blast people in their msn display msg, talking confidently about achieving some impossible targets when in fact they were once dropouts and have no achievements or whatsoever to boast of, writing love quotes about making sacrifices when people can only doubt whether u practice what u preach, scolding people constantly as if u're at the wrong end of things all the time, talking about having their patience tested as if they're someone who should not be messed with, etc. Such is my negativity of people. I just get this feeling that these people are just attention desperados who want to be thought of as having personality.

Sometimes when in a group of friends, someone tries to do lotsa "stunts"/actions/tantrums to cheer up the mood, I often take them as desperate attempts to impress the people around especially girls. Its quite distinguishable between genuine jokes and jokes intended to impress. While honest jokers get absorbed in the joke itself, attention desperados jokers usually cares too much about people's reaction to the joke that u can see from their eyes lingering around to look for response whether they are impressed or not. Sometimes when the joke is not funny at all and noone's laughing, it becomes lame, pathetic, and ironically funny bcos of the patheticness.

And I also have this terrible pre-judgment of people who describe themselves in friendster and blogger profiles. Those who talks highly of themselves sounds boastful to me. Some people go to the extent of stating their exact excellent result grades on the friendster profile. But then when people talk about them being just ordinary/simple/next-door/normal people, I also feel that they're seeking for attention rather than really being humble. What's wrong with me?! The problem to me here is too many people are saying that they are just ordinary people that it sounded to me they're trying to boast about being ordinary and at the same time different from others.

My point here is a lot of things can be done quietly with action, not talk. If u're aiming for something really ambitious, then do it first before u start boasting about it like how man utd players do. When u're not happy with someone, then try yr best to solve the problem rather than just banging people on msn display msg. When u have thoughts about your own relationship, then keep it personal and if u're a good partner then surely the resulting strong relationship will be there for all to see. You don't have to make it sound like the whole world revolves only around you. We can do it the kris allen way, quietly getting on with your job and ultimately gets the job done.

Then again, after all these crap, it's just necessary to mention that I'm not complaining cos they're just my negativity and opinions. I was talking about people's weaknesses above, and this negativity is my weakness.